DAY 84

Appleton, Wisconsin
August 26, 2009
Wed 11:47 PM

only six days between posts... not bad. i actually did not intend to write tonight, but i've been sitting working on my computer for awhile, so i felt that obligated to at least attempt a meager post. seriously, my brain in fried. on the other hand, my occasional insomnia appears to be cured... you know the cure... work over 60 hours a week, you'll be so exhausted all the time you'll have no problem falling asleep. waking up is another thing. ok, just had to mention this, i'm watching national geographic channel (currently showing a special on the crips and bloods) and i just saw a commercial for locked up abroad, a show about stupid people who think it would be smart to smuggle drugs for money (usually the drugs come from south america). immediately after that commerical was a commercial for tourism in colombia... hahaha, i find that funny. anyway, yeah, so my insomnia is cured, but i think i suffer from narcolepsy. i read the symptoms on wikipedia (the source of the uninsured) and i fit many of the symptoms, except i don't suffer from crazy, sleep seizure type episodes... at least not that i know of. but i do have times at work when, out of the blue, i feel like my brain has just been shut down and hard as i try i just become exhausted for no reason. my current remedy is to walk around and get a cold glass of water. but it is a serious problem i've suffered from awhile, but it's no big deal, i can handle it. it only seems to come up when i'm not actively engaged in some sort of task, any task. i've never had any problem driving, while taking a phone call, or doing basically anything. it's when i'm not actively doing anything that it strikes. if i have to sit and just listen to someone, i'm screwed. i'm out, even if i'm interested, my brain just freezes and my head bobs, and i suffer microsleeps. it's weird and annoying and can cause problems in meetings.

anyway, i'm starting to get tired now and there's a damn fly starting to really bug me. pun unintended. i've had a lot of witty comments i've come up with lately, but i just don't have the time. no time. it's ok, if i did have time i'd just sit around and watch tv all the time... when i get those rare moments to myself when i can watch tv and do laundry, it feels like a treat. yeah, doing laundry is a luxury, cause it means i have time to myself to do my own thing.

getting more and more tired... but don't want to sleep yet, can't sleep yet, must finish laundry, or at least switch loads. i think my parents need a new dryer, it sounds bad. and i know these things.

what else to talk about, oh, right, RIP ted kennedy. too bad he didn't live to see health care reform become a reality in his lifetime, if anything can come from the death of this legend i hope it spurs the democrats into action to pass this legislation in honor of teddy. the first time i was ever in the senate chamber, and come to think of it, it was my only time in the senate chamber, i saw ted kennedy. you couldn't miss him, he was a big guy. and at that time, i doubt i would've recognized any senator except the senators from my own state or senator kennedy. it's really sad, and his sister just died like two weeks ago, but at least they lived, as an irish poet once wrote, to comb their gray hair.

hmmm, watching sportscenter now, sources say farve has little support in the vikings lockerroom. oh, few statements can make me fell better. benedict farve has few supporters? really, the lazy usurper who thinks he can just join a team and not have to attend training camp has few supporters? call me shocked. what an asshole. and people say i'm bitter, they're right, i am bitter. and i don't like benedict farve... at all.

ahhh, still fighting sleep. at this point i kinda miss my insomnia, but not too much. i guess when... wait, just reread my last post, i've already talked about this. see, i'm fatigued and becoming... becoming... dammit, i can't even think of the word i was going to write now. becoming repetitive? no, it was better than that. well, that word will have to do.

what else to talk about... haven't watched any good movies lately, haven't had time, don't even have my tv set up yet. pathetic, i know. if i don't get my room in order anytime soon my life will continue to tread towards the pathetic. hard to stay awake... hard to keep head up. hard to keep fingers typing. but laundry not done yet, should've started it sooner. alas! another alarm sounds, please be the dryer... yes, it must be the dryer, the washer alarm went off awhile ago.

yes, it was dryer! loud dryer, and my bed is so comfy and it is calling me. calling me loudly. and yawn...

salbrent